Dear Heart..itz been almost 2 yearz since we into a relationship…time actually fliez…isn’t it…?? Seemz like yesterday when we met eachother for the first time…when we became “KNOWNZ” from “UNKNOWNZ”…seemz like yesterday when I proposed me n SHE hapily said a big “YES”…seemz like yesterday when we went on our first date…when we first time hugged eachother…kissed <juz kissed> eachother…when we first time felt that “AMAZING BOND” and that “SPECIAL TUNING” which we never ever felt earlier…when we felt that beautiful essence n that passion among eachother…may be that waz the time we were crazily into eachother…may be it waz “LOVE”…”FIRST LOVE” actually…true n pure…”UNCONDITIONAL” infact…!! ♥
But now when I see myself n her…I personally feel that we are “CHANGED”…not only “HER” but me “MYSELF” as well…I am not saying that we both don’t love eachother now…ofcourse we do…thatz why we are together presently…but now we both have got someother prioritiez as well in our life…say for instance our “FAMILY”…our “CAREER”…our “PEER GROUP”…our “INDIVIDUAL GOALZ”…earlier we both were just madly into eachother may be thatz why we neglected all other thingz…but as they say “TIME CHANGEZ AND SO DOES ONE’Z PRIORITIEZ”…may be thatz why we both are “CHANGED” now…itz not that we both aren’t eachother’z prioritiez now…itz just that we both aren’t eachother’z “ONLY PRIORITY” now…!! ♥
At timez I wonder that is this so called “CHANGE” good..?? Is it actually a positive thing..?? Did we both change “INTENSIONALLY”…?? Or waz it the situation and demand that made this “CHANGE” a “NECESSITY” for both of us…?? Well the answer to these questionz actually dependz on individual to individual but I know diary what I feel…?? I feel we both changed coz of the prevailing “CIRCUMSTANCEZ”…coz life is like a river…it just keepz on flowing with time…it keepz moving…it keepz changing…life can never be still so how can “WE” be still then…?? Even we will change…so all I want to say is “CHANGE IS A NECESSITY WHICH AT TIMEZ IS INTENSIONAL” so try and take it in a positive way and cope up with it in a positive manner coz “LIFE IS ALL ABOUT MOVING AHEAD…NOW ITZ UPTO U…U WANNA STAY AND SUFFER OR MOVE AND CHANGE WITH IT AND ENJOY”…!! ♥
“My dear…
I’m not a hero of any kind. I won’t turn your eyes golden or teach you how to fly.
Sometimes I wonder if you can see I’m just as needy as you are.
You say there is no one who could hold you like I do. But imagine if other arms felt warmer, more soothing than mine. Would you leave?
I’m not the boy your dad would like. With just one look at me standing close to you, I’d snatch away his pride.
So girl…why?
Imagine the moon having a voice, you think it would sound gentle when we drift by at night?
Ask my tears how many times they've seen me cry.
I tell myself it won’t hurt as much to let you go now then it would tomorrow. But I’ve written this letter over a hundred times.
Words fall from my hands like fallen angels from the sky. I can’t make them come true, I can’t leave you.
My deepest fear is to make you understand how exceptional you are, because you would no longer stand by a man who is not even half as special as you are.
Nothing has scared me more than love. These doubts keep twisting around my heart.
I am the fallen to you, my angel.
I won’t send you this letter baby, I won’t upset you now you’re still here
But when you would ever leave…I’ll give you my pile of letters and then you’ll see… I never took you you for granted and you’re the songs I sing.
Love you always.”
If I'd only known...
That this the last time we've met...
I would have stopped the break of dawn.
And stopped the sun to set..
If i'd only known...
That i wouldn't see you again...
I would have framed a picture of you within...
To end my suffering...to end my pain...
If i'd only known....
That this is the last time I sit by your side....
I would have told you how much I LOVED YOU....
Keeping rest things aside...
If I'd only known....
That we never hold hands again...
I would have held them strong...
N never let anything go wrong...
If I'd only known...
That you would stand always by my side....
I would have fought the world for you...
Breaking all the walls through...
If I'd only known...
That your love was true...
If I'd only known that you would come back soon...
I would have waited for you to come by....
I'f I only known any of this....
That you were what I was breathing for...
I would have breathed my last for you...
Seen you enough and bid you adieu...
While all I can do now...
Is sit here...
Waiting...
If I'd only known....
[The more of this or the less of this
Or is there any difference?
Or are we just holding onto things
we don't have anymore?
Sometimes time doesn't heal
No not at all
It just stands still
While we fall
In or out of love again I doubt I'm gonna
win you back
When you've got eyes like that
They won't let me in]
I know I'm holding onto you because I can't have you anymore.
I keep on seeing you with that guy and he's handsome. And you are happy.
I felt helpless and it hurt me. That's when I started to hurt myself.
I'm not sure if it made me feel any better. But it made me feel at all.
And that's not just a cliche. I saw your eyes and when they crossed mine that night
I was sure that you felt something. That way you looked away so quickly when
your girl appeared. It made me happy and empty at the same time.
Now that I can't have you anymore I remember all our words and conversations.
All that feelings that I destroyed so carefully because I just didn't want you.
I needed you. Maybe I needed that good feeling you gave me by taking me just
the way I was. I never gave back anything. Now I want to. So much time has passed
but I feel that I desperately want you to know that you meant something. Sometimes I feel
so stupid because I keep on struggling with that little story. But it makes me cry
so hard some nights, that it tells me that I've lost someone special. I've lost you.
I'm happy for you now, I want you to be happy. I'm sure that she makes you feel special
and that you make her feel special. And someday I will find someone that makes me
feel special again, too. Just the way you did.
Thank you.
