Everyone always wants to know how you can tell when it’s true love, and I think the answer is this: when the pain doesn't fade and the scars don’t heal, and it’s too damned late.
I loved you because you observed me as no one has, in my silence, you captured my habits, and quirks and still loved me. Last summer meant so much to me. More than you can ever imagine. And when you left I was a wreck. The letters I sent I tried to seem okay but I wasn't, I cried every night and every day I would wait for you to come back. In our time together you claimed a special place in my heart, one I’ll carry with me forever and that no one can replace. I believe that memories can have a physical almost living presence, and the times we shared are the best I've got. When I close my eyes I can see your face, when I walk it’s almost as if I can feel your hand in mine. Those things are still real to me, but where they once brought comfort, now they leave me with an ache. I hope you never have to think about anything as much as I think about you. Every time I saw someone with a crew cut, I’d feel my heart start beating faster, I knew it wasn't you but I wanted it to be you.
I fell in love you when we were together, I fell more in love with you when we were apart. I think that is dumb of me to say because while I was falling you were being hardened, trained, and sculpted into a person that I didn’t know. But I guess if you love deeply, you’re going to get hurt badly but it’s still worth it.
I never planned on falling in love with you, and in a different way your family, I always thought it to be unnecessary and messy. I learned the hard way that I was right.
I often remember our intimate moments together, the way we shared ourselves completely I feel as if that time has permanently linked our souls. I never opened myself up to anyone like that, and I hope I never have to do that again. I hope that you are the only one who knows each and every one of my secrets and fears, I hope that no one else hears my voice telling them that I love them when I first wake up or that I fall asleep in almost every movie theater. I hope that no one knows that you twitch when you sleep. I hope that no one comes to know the sound you make when a certain spot on your neck is kissed or that you might be the perfect man.
I miss you, whenever something funny happens you’re the person I want to tell. I want to make dinner for you and buy birthday cake ice cream because I saw it in the store and remembered it is your favorite. I want to fight with you, and explain, in depth, why the blue is better than the pink. I want to pretend to be interested in your video games and kiss you goodnight every single night. You and I shared something wonderful and I never want to forget that. You are truly one of a kind.
You’re thoughtful and honest, a true girl, but more than that you are the first women I ever truly loved and no matter what the future brings, you always will be, and I know that my life is better for it.
I love you, always.
I loved you because you observed me as no one has, in my silence, you captured my habits, and quirks and still loved me. Last summer meant so much to me. More than you can ever imagine. And when you left I was a wreck. The letters I sent I tried to seem okay but I wasn't, I cried every night and every day I would wait for you to come back. In our time together you claimed a special place in my heart, one I’ll carry with me forever and that no one can replace. I believe that memories can have a physical almost living presence, and the times we shared are the best I've got. When I close my eyes I can see your face, when I walk it’s almost as if I can feel your hand in mine. Those things are still real to me, but where they once brought comfort, now they leave me with an ache. I hope you never have to think about anything as much as I think about you. Every time I saw someone with a crew cut, I’d feel my heart start beating faster, I knew it wasn't you but I wanted it to be you.
I fell in love you when we were together, I fell more in love with you when we were apart. I think that is dumb of me to say because while I was falling you were being hardened, trained, and sculpted into a person that I didn’t know. But I guess if you love deeply, you’re going to get hurt badly but it’s still worth it.
I never planned on falling in love with you, and in a different way your family, I always thought it to be unnecessary and messy. I learned the hard way that I was right.
I often remember our intimate moments together, the way we shared ourselves completely I feel as if that time has permanently linked our souls. I never opened myself up to anyone like that, and I hope I never have to do that again. I hope that you are the only one who knows each and every one of my secrets and fears, I hope that no one else hears my voice telling them that I love them when I first wake up or that I fall asleep in almost every movie theater. I hope that no one knows that you twitch when you sleep. I hope that no one comes to know the sound you make when a certain spot on your neck is kissed or that you might be the perfect man.
I miss you, whenever something funny happens you’re the person I want to tell. I want to make dinner for you and buy birthday cake ice cream because I saw it in the store and remembered it is your favorite. I want to fight with you, and explain, in depth, why the blue is better than the pink. I want to pretend to be interested in your video games and kiss you goodnight every single night. You and I shared something wonderful and I never want to forget that. You are truly one of a kind.
You’re thoughtful and honest, a true girl, but more than that you are the first women I ever truly loved and no matter what the future brings, you always will be, and I know that my life is better for it.
I love you, always.
At night my mind says...Let’s sleep
My heart says...What you'll dream
That’s when my eyes tell....every time you weep.
The last song played on my cell phone
Was once dedicated to her
That’s when its lyrics tell...
She might have forgotten them.
I turned to the other side of the sleeping seat
Facing the window
That’s when light passing through it tells...a ray
of hope that you might meet..
In the darkest of
night…When you held my hand &
Told “don’t fear”
That’s when the touch of my own hand tells…
No one is here.
It was the silliest joke you cracked in the middle of
the night
And I smiled.
That’s when the silence tells…
let the past behind & walk a mile.
I toss n turn with thoughts & possibilities…
To be together & forever
That’s when dawn breaks and tells…
This is life…try to live happily ever.
I never knew a broken heart could keep on breaking.
You keep on sending your love but no ones there to take it.
Rivers of tears keep a steady flow…
But no ones there to know.
It’s you, you who I want to know.
You who I want to see…
All of what I think and feel, It’s you I want here with me.
Not a day goes by without wishing for a hug a kiss, a laugh, a cry…
For soothing hurts, tucking you into bed, or just a simple touch.
Not a night goes by I don’t miss you so…. Much!!!
Or my heart doesn't break just a lil’ bit more.
Shards turned to ice constantly falling to the floor.
I don’t believe in god, but still I pray.
That some how some day
You’ll be back in my life
For always and forever
And I’ll never let you go again
Never!!!
it was mid night ...the most awaited day of the month or you can say day of LOVE just started...
it was already 1 and still she haven't called...
i know she is at her home and sleeps with her parentz..
i understand i always do but some time its just the emotion which matter ...but i love her to much and i didn't wanted to get upset..
i was just listening to our favorite songs...
ya i had a separate collection with folder name "our songs"
finally it was 2 and my eyes were burning thought i ll sleep just when i shut downed all application and went to sleep it was hardly 10 mins when my phone vibrated without looking at the screen i received..
she:hey beautiful i am so sorry for making you wait so long...
i was in sleep ...and she was hardly whispering i couldn't hear her clearly...
me:its fine..i wish we could meet today but i understand you have function to attend so yu went home ..
she:ya and sorry for calling yu so late..actually dad was not feeling well so he couldnt sleep finally he slept but i didn't wanted to take risk..
so i came to bathroom to talk to yu..
though i was in sleep i smiled that she went to washroom just to talk with me...we were talking about lot of stuff and few time she said what she wanted to do if she was around...
we talked for long hours but i was so tired ..but i knew tomorrow she ll be busy with function so she wont talk... my eyes were getting closed due to burning...while talking i said
me:baby i love you please dont ever leave me and please dont end the call or else i ll feel as if yu just left..
she:no jaan i wont leave just close your eyes....and think
i am sleeping right next yu , your head resting on my chest ..my one hand around your waist pulling you little more close and one hand caressing your cheeks...gave you kiss on your forehead...
i smiled once again actually blushed...
at around 5 in morning i was feeling cold so i woke up and noticed my phone was still on my ear..i checked the screen and call was still there and i said hello??
she instantly replied jaan what happened you woke up??had bad dream??i could sense worry in her voice...
me:no i was feeling cold so got up...and are you mad i mean who keeps the phone on hold for so long you should have slept na..and i am so sorry but i was so tired i just slept....
she:jaan its ohk and how can i leave you when you are sleeping in my arm how can i leave you alone ..what if you get scared and spoil your sleep...
i didnt get words to reply i just blushed once again...
me:jaan please sleep now....you might be tired we will talk in noon just make sure you complete your sleep..
she:baby just by starting the day by listening to your voice make me forget all my tiredness...
i wish she was around i would have given her the tightest hug ever possible...
and this was the best Valentine gift i ever got...i realized what i mean to her...i mean this is 21st century who stay awake in washroom just cause they are part of some imagination...and i felt blessed to have her....:D
it was already 1 and still she haven't called...
i know she is at her home and sleeps with her parentz..
i understand i always do but some time its just the emotion which matter ...but i love her to much and i didn't wanted to get upset..
i was just listening to our favorite songs...
ya i had a separate collection with folder name "our songs"
finally it was 2 and my eyes were burning thought i ll sleep just when i shut downed all application and went to sleep it was hardly 10 mins when my phone vibrated without looking at the screen i received..
she:hey beautiful i am so sorry for making you wait so long...
i was in sleep ...and she was hardly whispering i couldn't hear her clearly...
me:its fine..i wish we could meet today but i understand you have function to attend so yu went home ..
she:ya and sorry for calling yu so late..actually dad was not feeling well so he couldnt sleep finally he slept but i didn't wanted to take risk..
so i came to bathroom to talk to yu..
though i was in sleep i smiled that she went to washroom just to talk with me...we were talking about lot of stuff and few time she said what she wanted to do if she was around...
we talked for long hours but i was so tired ..but i knew tomorrow she ll be busy with function so she wont talk... my eyes were getting closed due to burning...while talking i said
me:baby i love you please dont ever leave me and please dont end the call or else i ll feel as if yu just left..
she:no jaan i wont leave just close your eyes....and think
i am sleeping right next yu , your head resting on my chest ..my one hand around your waist pulling you little more close and one hand caressing your cheeks...gave you kiss on your forehead...
i smiled once again actually blushed...
at around 5 in morning i was feeling cold so i woke up and noticed my phone was still on my ear..i checked the screen and call was still there and i said hello??
she instantly replied jaan what happened you woke up??had bad dream??i could sense worry in her voice...
me:no i was feeling cold so got up...and are you mad i mean who keeps the phone on hold for so long you should have slept na..and i am so sorry but i was so tired i just slept....
she:jaan its ohk and how can i leave you when you are sleeping in my arm how can i leave you alone ..what if you get scared and spoil your sleep...
i didnt get words to reply i just blushed once again...
me:jaan please sleep now....you might be tired we will talk in noon just make sure you complete your sleep..
she:baby just by starting the day by listening to your voice make me forget all my tiredness...
i wish she was around i would have given her the tightest hug ever possible...
and this was the best Valentine gift i ever got...i realized what i mean to her...i mean this is 21st century who stay awake in washroom just cause they are part of some imagination...and i felt blessed to have her....:D
