3rd March .2013 around 12:45 a.m. I waz trying my best to concentrate on my studiez but somehow I couldn't...I waz again again checking out my phone...to check if I missed her message or call but I ended with sheer disappointment...another day passed by and we didn't had a talk...YES I MISS YOU...I miss you badly...I miss our beautiful midnight conversationz...I miss our crazy laughterz...I miss our idiotic pjz...I miss those 3 magical wordz...!! ♥
Itz not that she doesn't love me now...itz just that she is out of leisureness ...although she said that she will manage somehow and will definately call me no matter if itz just for 5 minz but she didn't...I understand her truly so I won't complaint also but itz just that I am so used to our talkz and our long conversationz that it hurtz when I don't talk to him...!! ♥
Sometimez I feel why do I miss her...?? Do I miss her coz I am addicted to her or do I miss her coz I love her...?? Well the answer to the question as per me is that addiction isn't love for sure but a true feeling from within which just makez you think of "HER" 24x7...which makez you feel attached...yes then may be itz love...I don't have any particular reason to miss her and this is what differenciatez love and addiction...if I have a reason to miss her then I will stop missing her the day the reason getz over...!! ♥
So basically I just miss her coz I miss her...no reasonz...so I can conclude that "YES...I TRULY LOVE HER"...missing someone special is one of the most crucial part in a relationship coz if your love is true then this space won't increase gap between the couple but will strengthen your relation...every relation has upz and downz and it totally dependz on you how you cope up with them...so for now I am just waiting and waiting and missing him...all I want to say is
''I MISS U AND I LOVE U'' ♥
3 yearz...long time...?? Isn't it...?? We started dating when I waz in 10th...at that time we were in same class but unfortunately we splitted in 11th when I opted freakin engineering and she chose swwet medicos...still we both somehow managed to maintain our relation...atleast we were in the same school...atleast we used to see a glance of eachother once a day...SCHOOL TIME waz actually the best time for us both...that waz the first time we experienced the beauty n serenity of love...we didn't even realize when those last 2 golden yearz of schooling flew away...!! ♥Now it waz time for college admissionz...I managed to get into one of the most reputed enguneerin' college of Delhi and she also managed to get into one of the most reputed medical college but unfortunately not in Delhi...she had to go for "7 YEARZ" to Mumbai...now this waz something which we never expected...not even in our wildest dreamz...we thought to break up coz we both didn't beleived in "LONG DISTANCE"...!! ♥Weekz passed by and we realized how much we were into eachother even after the distance problem...so we thought of reviving our relation and giving it a second chance...YES WE THOUGHT OF MAINTAINING OUR LONG DISTANCE RELATION...initially we didn't found it that difficult to maintain coz we used to chat for hourz on phone and facebook but gradually as weekz passed by we realized the lack of our wonderful meetingz...the lack of physical presence craved us both...it had been 3 monthz and we hadn't met and God knew when next we would have met...!!Gradually there arouse insecurity...jealousy...tauntingz...fightz...argumentz...possessiveness...infact over possessiveness...our relation waz just going worse and even worse...now we both were not less then a burden in eachother'z life...just creating mess n stress thatz it...there waz everything except LOVE in our relation so finally we both took a wise decision n mutually broke up and set ourselvez free...now after 2 yearz of break up we find ourselvez glad that we finally moved on
"COZ MAY BE LOVE LEFT US...COZ MAY BE WE WEREN'T MEANT TO BE...COZ MAY BE THIS IS WHAT WAZ RIGHT AND JUSTIFIED" ♥
1st March .2013 . around 5 p.m. while I waz in my college my phone buzzed...I immediately saw the caller...it waz "HER"...I cut her call and messaged her "In class ttyl"...she replied back..."Ok will call you at night"...that night around 11 p.m. I received her message saying "Sorry won't be able to talk...waz a hectic and busy day and I am dead tired"...I replied back "Itz ok...good night" ♥
This scenario is happening since the past 1 week...we both aren't able to talk with eachother at all...whenever she getz free I am busy and whenever I get free she is indulged somewhere...and even if we somehow manage to get time and talk then thatz also just for 10-15 minutez...thatz it...I miss her...I miss conversing with her a lot...you know what diary there waz a time when we used to chat for hourz late night...about anything and everything...!! ♥
There waz a time when we used to whatz app 24x7...there used to pass not even a single day without conversing with eachother but unfortunately now itz not even half...time has grabbed us both...she is extremely busy with her work and me with my studiez and examz...I don't even remember when we last met...when we had that eye contact...those beautiful romantic momentz...when we last felt eachother...I miss that time a lot...!! ♥
At timez I wonder that even though we aren't frequently in touch with eachother...did it made OUR LOVE...OUR MAGICAL BOND weak...?? Well the answer is "NO...not at all"...infact it made our love even stronger coz even though we have physical distance...mentally we both are alwayz connected and this is what "LOVE" all about...love isn't just to talk to someone day night and saying I love you...love is to stay in eachother'z mind alwayz which bindz us together no matter how far or near we are...and I am glad that even though we aren't able to give eachother time we are still connected through our mind and our heart coz this is what love is all about...to stay in eachother'z heart alwayz n forever so alwayz remember "LOVE IS SPECIAL AND ITZ FROM WITHIN US"...!! ♥
"YES...LIVE IN RELATIONSHIPZ AREN'T THAT BAD EITHER...!!" ♥Dear heart...what do you think about LOVE...?? Well don't know about you but I find it a very unique and lovely emotion...itz something which givez me mixed feelingz...there is understanding...loyalty...fightz...possessiveness...jealousy...open mindedness...and above all and most importantly TRUST...and our LOVE recently went through itz biggest test wanna know what...??A few weekz back my next visit luckily waz in Lucknow...itz exactly where she residez...I waz just feeling out of the world not just coz I am meeting her but also coz I get to spend loadz of time with her but unfortunately meh work waz so hectic that whole day just passed in office between filez and recordz...so ultimately we just had the night time to spend together...itz obvious she can't reside in the guest house where I waz staying so she asked me to "LIVE IN" with him for the 3 dayz I waz there in Lucknow...!! ♥Don't make assumptionz guys...I know what you are thinking...but to tell you that LIVE IN RELATIONSHIP isn't just about sex...itz also about living with your partner...staying with your partner...spending lotz of time with them...spending those romantic and beautiful momentz with them...holding eachotherz handz while watching late night movie...playing the stare game...sleeping on his shoulder while hugging him...just falling in LOVE with eachother again and again each time we see eachother...yes...this is what LIVE IN RELATION is all about...!! ♥Specially we being in a LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP...these 3 dayz were the most special and wonderful dayz of my life coz these dayz I realized what true love is all about...we got to know eachother even better...it waz like a future practice for us both to live with eachother like a couple...on the contrary I would also like to suggest you that we should go for it only if we have full faith in our partner otherwise this can prove to be adverse...but since I have full faith in him all I want to say is
