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It happened completely unexpected. I wasn't looking for anything, I was still stuck on the one who will be left nameless. Then you happened
It Wasn't Nothing....
Distracted
It’s happened again
I can’t keep my mind on the task at hand
You’re bad for my work
But so good for my health
You make me smile
When I really don’t think I can
Even this next line
Isn’t coming out how I want it to
My vision goes blurry
Reliving memories of days past
The conversations
The silences
That doesn’t happen too often
I wonder if you realise all this
I would never tell you
It’s probably not good for your health
But it might be
You just never know
Could be nothing
I hope it’s not.
♥
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I am not going to go all stalker on you, but I at least want to put my thoughts down. I need to get this out for me and once again I am sorry for doing this. Seems I've always been good at hurting you and now is no different.
I was an unappreciative lover who didn't see how much I loved you.
I turned my back on you in your time of need.
I didn't fight to keep you until it was too late.
I didn't show my love for you on a regular basis.
I didn't keep you happy.
I tried to control you instead of letting you control yourself.
I, in part, allowed you to become so dependent on me.
I didn't make love to you every chance I got.
I expected you to turn off your illness to please me. With this one, there is some middle ground. I wanted you to see that you do have control and not to give up. I think I took it too far at times.
I didn't realize how much I was IN LOVE with you until it was too late
And most of all, I didn't make you want to stay with me.