"It's been on my mind since yesterday - I wonder if she knows what day it is today.
It's a year since we met. A year since that wonderful, crazy night in which we both let our guards down. 365 days ago I thought she was completely wild. It didn't take me long to realize how wrong and privileged I was that she would give me a glimpse of that side of her.
What I got to know is this: She is amazing. She is perfect. She is everything I ever wanted a woman to be. She is more. She is a rare thing.
In the late night conversations in which I've told her as much, I've also told her how I wish she had been the first one I loved. Because I know she wouldn't have hurt me like the other one did, so many years ago.
But she wasn't and I'm broken, unlike her. And she deserves someone who is like that, who is intact. Someone who can love her like that.
And so, because I couldn't love fully her, we became friends. I just couldn't let her go.
Today, she is my best friend and the one person whom I trust wholeheartedly and root for unconditionally.
I hope she knows.
-P."
It was the time of my endless movie viewing streak and I saw a timeless piece in romantic genre. I must mention a scene where the boy is going to meet his girlfriend and he takes a cab. The cabbie senses the trouble on his face and upon asking, the boy says: "I can't seem to make her happy these days and now she is going to her hometown without me." The cabbie asks only one question: "What if she never comes back. Could you live with that?" The boy grows pale with shock. Suddenly his heart and mind roll back to recent days, the disputes and the unhappy moments. He thought as if all that really came to the point of no return.
At the time it was only a movie for me, just a scene; I never thought I would ever take place of that boy someday. I’m not implying we had some disputes recently....no! The thing is, she's gone and will never be back...........it’s been 2 months an still I am having a hard time believing the fact, let alone dealing with it. One year she was here and I thought I had all the time in the world. Planned so many things, thought so many ideas.....but now??? She's not here and I'm left alone, in a dark pit of despair, no way out and no way further in.
If not for her, I would never have known the meaning of true love, never would have felt the ecstasy of truly living the life. She is imprinted all over me. I never gave it much thought as to how I would leave this world but going for her would be a good way to go. When I say "I love you", I understand the gravity of these three words, and I found out long ago that my heart can never produce or bear such emotional drive for anyone else. Without her, it’s just my hopeless life, my pain, occasional tears...but all that's nothing in comparison to my hope that we will see each other soon. In the darkest of my moments when I think about her, each ounce of pain seems totally worth the wait to see her again, because each passing day is bringing me closer to the moment I am living for, the moment when my eyes will witness the greatest miracle in my life that is HER and it will not be a dream.
There is no life without love, there is no world without love, if there is, I don't want to be a part of it. I will keep begging you till the last breath: Please come back, for my heart is there with you, and here I am, rotting away alone in warm NCR sun. I am sure my life would bring some moments of smile for me, and those moments will come but smile would keep eluding me because it recognizes me by your face and you are not with me. If I'd known that loneliness is far worse than death, I'd have never let you go.
I've been out there and it seems that if there is one place in this world that belongs to me, where I can feel my heart beat, it's right next to you. I feel love for you more than the fear of waiting for you forever. Forever doesn't bother me but what does is the fact that every moment without you is chance I am losing to make you happy, its what I do and will keep doing for eternity and beyond, no matter what is the price...you know why???? ....because I selflessly and madly fell in love with you the first time I saw you and after 19 years, to this day, I feel the same rush of heartbeats when I am with you, same glow in my eyes when I see you. I am nothing if not a lover and this lover will keep the love alive even after he is gone.
The answer is NO, if you never come back, I cannot live with it. Wish you were here so that could tell all this instead of writing it. Eyes connect deeper than anything. There was once a dream that we will be together, it never happened but dream lives on, wish it comes true, wish you smile always, wish I could make you believe in every fairy tale you ever heard, wish you were here.........If Only.........
~ The Pain Continues ~
Its hard to find someone who loves you from all his heart and all his soul, coz he/she knows that "Love Is Selfless".
If I treat you like a Queen,
Don't be Astonished -
this is the least you should be treated as !!
If I Love you more than anything on this earth,
Don't be Surprised -
This is the minimum you should get from me !!
If I value you more than my life,
Don't Wonder -
This is the tiniest form of your worth !!
If I give you all my happiness and take all your sadness,
Don't Appreciate -
This is what your existence demands !!
If I could, I would have loved you even after I have died,
but I know its not possible..
but until I am alive,
until I breath,
until my soul is in my body
I WILL LOVE YOU !!
The day of my death will be most saddening for me,
than for anybody else,
Because on that day I would know that
I will not be able to love you anymore !!
4 yearz....7 monthz....6 dayz...hmmm...itz indeed a long time since we have been in a relationship...we are the perfect couple..."made for eachother typez"...we are extremely compatible...we know eachother really well...our strengthz...weeknessez...our likez...dislikez...our choicez...n just everything...whenever we were together we were so happy that she alwayz used to make "PROMISES"...!!
Her 1st Promise - I will never hurt u my love...!! ♥
Her 2nd Promise - U are my life n I can't live without u...!! ♥
Her 3rd Promise - I won't ever leave u...!! ♥
All her promisez one after another just made me trust her n love her even more...It waz like I started to follow her blindly...whatever she said seemed right...seemed like my own brain has stopped working...it'z impact waz so terrific that I actually stopped thinking from my perspective...even for a mere thing it waz just her n her perspective which mattered to me now...seemed like life can't be more "PERFECT"...everything waz so smooth n good...but as they say "when thingz are going over smooth n perfect...then thatz the sign of an approaching storm"...n guess what...?? It proved to be true...!!
One fine day she called to meet me n said itz something very important she wantz to tell me...
she said "I WANT TO BREAKUP"... trust me I just couldn't move when she said that...my sensez stopped working...my heart started beating faster n even faster...my mind flooded with zillionz of questionz but all I could ask her waz a big "WHY...??"
She said she has family pressure n as she really respectz n lovez her family she can't go against them...she lovez me from the core of her heart but can't be with me as she can't hurt her family...I recalled her "PROMISEZ" which she made...!!
Her 1st Promise - But u hurted me my love...!! :'(
Her 2nd Promise - I am your life but u can definately live without me...!! :'(
Her 3rd Promise - But u are willingly ready to leave me...!! :'(
All fake promisez she made...Yes...!! I waz a fool who trusted her...I am not saying that she should have chosen me over her family but the fact remainz that why she made fake promisez when somewhere in her heart she knew she wouldn't be able to keep upto her wordz...my feelingz...my emotionz...my trust...my love...everything waz retained on those "3 GOLDEN PROMISEZ"...but she broke them all...I am extremely hurt n I am way too upset but now I want to make a "PROMISE" which I will retain at any cost...!!
I promise u my heart that "I WILL MOVE ON FROM HER"...!! ♥
This incidence gave me a lesson for lifetime... "NEVER FAKE PROMISEZ TO ANYONE AS ONCE BROKEN IT HURTZ LIKE A 1000 KNIFEZ STABBED IN YOUR HEART...!!"
Itz been almost a month since we broke up...well actually not "WE"...it waz "SHE" who broke up...who dumped me coz of just no reason...I waz shattered...heart broken n above all "LOST"...lost in my own world...lost in her memoriez...in her so called "LOVE"...seemed like every song is portraying my situation...seemed like I have lost the inner ''ME''...my essence n myself...everything waz lost somewhere...I couldn't concentrate on anything...no work nothing...it waz her thoughtz...her talkz...her smile...her laughter...her wordz..."HER" who surrounded my mind 24x7...yes...I love her madly...truly n purely...!! ♥
But she doesn't love me...infact she didn't even bother to know if I am alive or not...itz been 27 dayz since she broke up n not even once she contacted me...seemz like our 1 year relationship waz just of "ZERO" value in her life... but why...?? why she is doing so...?? Where did my LOVE for her lag behind...?? Why can't she still be with me...?? These questionz were just increasing day by day n so waz the curiosity to get itz answerz...but all I saw waz a "DEAD END"...so finally my friendz supported me n helped me recover...!! ♥
Now I am almost recovered from the shock n reality of our breakup...I tried to start leading my normal life again...not for me but for my near n loved onez coz they care for me n can't see me upset n ruining myself the way I had been doing since long...but the real question is still unanswered...
"WHAT TO DO NOW...?? SHOULD I MOVE ON COMPLETELY OR STILL WAIT FOR HIM TO COME BACK...?? ♥"
Well the answer to this question is extremely difficult coz on one hand is my "LOVE" n my "FEELINGZ" towardz her...my pure n true feelingz which isn't easy to ignore coz I still love her a lot from every piece of my broken heart...n on the other hand is my whole life...my family...my friendz who just want my hapiness...who care for me...who love me...who can't see me shattered the way I waz...so what should I do...??
Well in my case "SHE" didn't even looked back n bothered to contact me...Not even once she bothered to know how am I surviving without her...not even once she bothered to know if I am alive or not...this attitude of her clearly portrayz that "SHE HAS MOVED ON" n that too very easily...itz also quite evident that she doesn't loved me ever the way I did or else atleast once she would have contacted me directly or indirectly...so I have decided to "MOVE ON"...yes I will move on...n I will be determined enough to stay to my decision in future as well coz now if she ever triez to contact me I will never ever give her a chance again coz this decision is definately justified from each n every aspect...
I know itz easy to say but damn difficult to move on in reality but itz not impossible either...so I will give myself a second chance n will give a fresh start coz I guess I deserve it...!! ♥
Everything was going wrong between us..
She was not the same.. She was ignoring me..lying to me.. We were hardly talking for few mins in those days.. I knew something is wrong.. I tried to ask her many times.. But she only said, "That's your miss understanding CUTIE, Everything is alright between us.. Dnt worry." .. And I tried to make myself believe that she is right.. I am just over thinking. But deep inside I knew that it was not the truth.
..Long distance relationship are always based on *Trust*.. Because you cant see each other..U have to believe watever your partner says..And I did the same.. One late night I suddenly woke up.. I took my cell and dialed her number.. I was shocked..I couldn't believed wat I heard.. It was showing busy.. I was afraid.. But still I told myself that she might be talking wid her friend.. I called her again.. She disconnected my call on second line.. It was still on waiting.. I tried to sleep.. Early morning it was 5 am ..I again tried to call her.. And damn.. it was still waiting.. Now I knew it was not his friend..
.. I knew the truth still I didnt wanted to come on conclusion so I asked her next day..
She answered, "He is just my friend Cutie."
I asked her, " Is he is so important for you, that you cant even pick up my call on waiting..?"
She told, " he wouldn't felt good..If I would have kept him on waiting.."
I shouted , " And wat about me Damn it.. ! I was calling you till early morning.."
.. And That was first time I felt.. Yes I was being *Replaced* .. She was more concerned about someone Else's feelings than mine.. We argued alot.. Every second of argument I was dying with the pain that someone had stolen my place in her *life*.. Now that had became a routine.. Daily late night I used to call her and it was on waiting.. I messaged her..I was begging .. crying "please pick up my call once.." But she didnt.. She knew very well from wat I was suffering.. But she only replied, " I cant disconnect his call."
.. I spent all those night sleepless..crying.. fighting for my love.. But it was already too late..I never thought in dreams dat dis could happened with me.. Because I was in a false believe that I am doing more than she could expect from her partner.. But no..I was wrong.. Those days were like a hell for me.. She kept telling me that he is just a friend.. But I knew it was not truth.. I loved her so much that even was unable to break relation. Even just before my exam .. Whole night I was crying and next day I went for exam.. Paper was worst bcoz I didnt studied .. I realized wat wrong I was doing with my life.. I stopped myself der..
.. Few days later she realized her mistake or may be my value.. Watever..! She saw dat I was not more fighting with her.. She apologized for her mistake.. But wat was the use.. She couldnt give me my sleepless nights back.. and more dan dat my exams.. I accepted her apology but I lost respect for her..Even after my lots of try I was not able to make things right between us.. I suffered biggest pain of my life..
Being *Replaced*..
So I decided to close dat chapter.. It was hurting me but staying der was more difficult.. !
Itz been almost a dual course since we together...2 year meanz 24 monthz...750 dayz approx...I guess itz a good enough time to "UNDERSTAND" someone...yes we do know n understand eachother really well...we know our likez n dislikez...our pros n conz...our good n bad traitz...our personality...we know what thingz can hurt us n what thingz can make up our moodz n our fightz...so basically we LOVE eachother n understand eachother pretty well...!!
♥
But still at timez I feel that even after such understanding there are a few thingz n incidencez which hurt me a lot coz I certainly don't expect them from her...like the recent incident which happened a week back...from past few dayz she didn't called me at all...not even once...not even a single message...ok
"I UNDERSTAND HER"...
thinking her to be busy even I didn't disturbed her but it had been 3 dayz already n I waz missing her badly so I couldn't control myself n gave her a call at night around 11:30 n to my surprise her phone waz "BUSY"...I again called at 11:45 n it waz still busy...I thought of waiting for her back call n I don't remember when in this wait I slept...!!
Next day morning I woke up with a desperation to see her call for me but as I checked my phone there waz not even a single message from her...now what to do...?? How to react...?? Isn't it a bit too much...?? First she didn't contact me at all n now when I contacted her myself she didn't even bothered to reply me back with a mere goodnight message...Should I again try n understand...?? but this behaviour of her waz more like a sort of "IGNORANCE" which hurt me...yes.. "I WAZ HURT"...!! </3
Even after all this I somehow gathered courage n strength to again try n "UNDERSTAND" her coz I LOVE HER n may be there would be some sort of problem that she didn't contact me at all coz she never ignorez me like that...n guess what...?? I waz right...she called me next day night n apologized that she couldn't contact me last night as she waz extremely upset...she said it waz his Dad with whom she waz conversing n that she had a fight with him regarding something...itz quite common with out of town galz having argumentz with parentz...she also added that if he would have had conversed with me last night we would have had a huge fight coz of just no reason as she would have definately spilled out his Dad'z rage n anger on me...she also thanked me for understanding her n trusting her n above all for "LOVING" her so much...!! ♥
I just smiled n said "I LOVE U N ABOVE ALL I UNDERSTAND U...!!" n thatz what made our day
...all I want to say is that don't just simply react n make perceptionz by knowing one side...
"there are alwayz two sidez of a coin"
...so try n understand your partner well...give them time...don't just react n spoil thingz...coz ultimately itz u who have to face itz future implicationz...
today I am proud that I didn't reacted n controlled myself n my emotionz at that time coz thatz what made our LOVE even stronger today coz somewhere at the end we have to remain together now...alwayz n forever...!! ♥
20th Jan 2K13--->
This day has alwayz been one of the most special dayz of my life coz this waz the day when 4 yearz back we met for the very first time...yes...it'z our anniversary day...somehow we are managing n continuing our relation...we are a normal couple who fightz a lot...are possessive at timez...understandz n care for eachother but still lovez eachother...but when I go to "FLASHBACK" I find our relationship "CHANGED"...considerably changed infact...!! ♥
The first year of our relation waz like I waz in "HEAVEN"...I felt like a "PRINCE" coz she alwayz treated me like one...it waz like we both were into eachother madly n purely...seemed like nothing more perfect could have been there...seemed like the almightly gave me everything I alwayz desired off...even more infact...at that time I used to consider myself the most luckiest girl...We used to talk 24x7...I still remember those continuous day night messaging...those 4-5 hourz midnight conversationz almost everyday...those hangoutz at different placez...those countless n special datez...those moviez...those chit chatz...that romance...that feeling...that lovely essence to be with him...those future planningz...those laughterz...that craziness...those prankz...that LOVE...seemed like life waz just perfect at that time...!! ♥
Itz not that we don't love eachother now...ofcourse we do thatz why we are together even after 4 long yearz but the essence of our relation which waz there at the very beginning has "FADED"...yes...itz almost gone now...now I dont get excited whenever we meet...now we dont talk 24x7...now we aren't into eachother madly...n most importantly now we have started fighting a lot...even at mere n stupid thingz we fight n that too for just no reason...I still remember we did a special celebration on our 1st anniversary but after 4 yearz today on our 4th anniversary we are not even meeting eachother...!!
I gave a deep thought that why this drastic "CHANGE" occured in our relationship...?? Where is that essence gone...?? Itz not that we don't love eachother then why has our love faded...?? I thought n thought n realized that the essence has faded coz of lack of the most important element in our relation "SPACE"...Space is the most important element in any relation n this is where we lagged behind...I recalled n realized that 4 yearz back there waz simply no space in our relation...so somewhere in the excitement n craziness of our new love n our endless chatterz we just blew away everything n all the stuffz in vain n saved simply nothing for future...thatz why presently at timez we just have no topic to chat on n why not..?? After all we never realized the importance of "SPACE"...but as they say..."BETTER LATE THEN NEVER" so I have decided to try n revive that missing essence in our relation again coz somewhere or the other we are made for eachother n we know that...so alwayz remember... ♥
"SPACE IS A NECESSITY IN ANY RELATIONSHIP SO TRY N MAINTAIN IT FROM THE VERY START OR ELSE THAT ESSENCE WILL FADE AWAY IN LONG RUN WHICH AT TIMEZ IS EXTREMELY DIFFICULT TO REVIVE...!!" ♥
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I am not a guy who carry attitude.. But Yes I dont like to interact with new people much.. I cant start conversation easily.. But yes its only applicable when they are new.. Once I get close to some one they will know I am completely *Insane* .. :P
.. We were together in college from last one year.. But we hardly talked.. And so she thought I am a guy with full attitude.. Whenever I used to see her in black, my heart skipped a beat.. Yes kind of Crush.. But I never planned to get close to her..
One day in college I was absent in lectures so I needed PPTs.. I went to her, I asked her if she can forward me it.. She was agreed.. We exchanged our numbers.. And our FRIENDSHIP started.. Few casual messages turned into daily talks.. .. I dnt know why but just in few days she became close friend of mine... I started caring for her in very unusual way... I even shared biggest secrets of my life, which I hardly shared with any one.. Now she was no more unknown to me.. We became very close friends..
.. Even she shared her past with me.. After a broken relationship she was living her life as formality.. I didnt liked it.. I decided I will brought him back to her life.. And Thank God I succeeded.. I brought lots of smile on her face without any efforts.. ♥
.. We both cared for each other.. We were addicted to each other..
One day we had a fight.. .. I was angry.. we were standing on one side of road.. " I am going home.. " I said
" I dont know how to stop you.. But please stay with me if you can..I need you.. I am addicted you.. I am back in my life because of you.. I dont have words to explain your importance in my life.. I know I am stupid, I hurt you.. But I cant imagine my life without you.. " She was damm sad.. Not a single time she said she love me.. But I could feel that in every word she said..
My heart melted, " Please dont be sorry.. I am not leaving you..Dont worry.. " Damm I really cant see her sad.. That meeting didnt end at good point.. We both were back to home.. I was thinking about the moments we spent.. I took my cell and typed a message..
" I wont say I Love you.. I will make you feel I do.. "
" That I felt today.. You dont need to say this.. After hurting you so much.. You were there just for me.. " She replied back.. I smiled with tears in my eyes.. Tears of happiness.. ♥
... And thats how actually our Love Story started... No one proposed each other.. No one had intention to be in love with each other.. We both just wanted to make smile each other.. Even we dont know when we fell in love... It was just totally Unplanned Love Story... :)
.. One day she was my best friend and next day she became *Love of my Life* .. Today I also remember every moment of that special day.. Those moments which turned my life into heaven.. I and YOU turned into WE... Yes Life do change in a minute.. And I am loving this life because I have her.. :)
..You know, one day you look at the person and you see something more than you did the night before.
like a switch has been flicked somewhere. and the person who was just a friend is...
suddenly the only person you can ever imagine yourself with..♥
...Itz been 2 yearz since we together...to be honest I find myself extremely lucky to have "HER" as my gal...she is very caring n loyal...n above all she lovez me like crazy...whatelse could a guy desire off...??
But as they say when thingz are going over smooth thatz the time when an unknown storm is approaching...same waz the case with us when this incidence just spoilt everything between us...!!
Due to our busy schedulez we weren't able to catch up quite often...after weekz we planned out a date on 18th
January.2013...I waz extremely glad n excited...n why not..?? Itz so exciting to meet your only LOVE...to be with
your only n only SPECIAL PERSON...everything waz set n planned when suddenly she called off n cancelled the plan late night on 17th saying that she has got some extremely important work which she will tell me in detailz later...!!
I got extremely furious when she cancelled the plan just like that...after a heated argument I just cut the call saying "I HATE U...!!" Next day morning instead of going to college just to refresh my mood I went with my friend for shopping in a Mall...n to my shock I saw "HER" there with a "GUY" hanging around in the same Mall...I waz literally heartbroken n shattered at that time...I mean she cancelled our "DATE" coz she wanted to hang around with that guy...I just went to "HER" then n there itself n removed her ring from my finger n gave it to her n shouted "DON'T U DARE CONTACT ME AGAIN...I HATE U...HUH...!!" n I went off...!!
She seemed embarrased n ran after me shouting..."CUTIE...WAIT IDIOT...ATLEAST LISTEN TO ME...!!" I literally started
crying n shouting...I actually created a messy scene...we were the center of attraction there...everyone waz into us to know what waz actually happening but my emotionz were just out of control...she held me from my shoulderz n shouted "STOP REACTING STUPID...ATLEAST LISTEN TO ME ONCE...HE IS MY COUSIN BROTHER U GOT DAMN IDIOT...!!"
I waz just speechless at that moment..."WHAT..??" I shouted...then he entered into the conversation n said "Ohh so u are ROY...so this guy is my sister'z choice...nice to meet u boy...!!"
She shouted "he is my elder brother...he came yesterday night to meet me n my family n he is just here for today...thatz why I cancelled the plan coz he came specially to meet me n I wanted to spend some time with him...n u know what we were doing here...we were planning to buy something for u as an "APOLOGY GIFT" from my side...but u really don't deserve anything...now get lost...!!"
I waz ashamed n embarrased at the sametime...I waz so guilty that I couldn't utter even a "SORRY" to her...
"YES...I MISUNDERSTOOD HER...!!"
Itz not that I don't trust her...itz just that I love her so much that I can't bear to see her with anyone except me...I just reacted like crazy n spoilt thingz between us...I apologized n after sometime she forgave me but these mere thingz are actually not good for a relationship...after this incidence I learnt a lesson...a lesson for a lifetime...
" THERE ARE ALWAYZ TWO SIDEZ OF A COIN...SO BEFORE REACTING N JUDGING WE SHOULD GET HOLD OF BOTH THE SIDEZ OR ELSE IT CAN SPOIL JUST EVERYTHING...!!" ♥
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| JUZ WANNA BE WITH UH...
.. " From last 3 days we are trying to meet.. But unable to.. I am missing you.." Got her message..
.. " We will meet today for sure.." I replied her
.." But where we will go cutie... We need a place to meet, And because of ' Delhi Bandh ' all cafe, resto are closed.." She said..
.." We can still meet for 5 mins atleast.." Even I wanted to meet her..
.. " Ok you be ready after dinner.. I will pick you up.. Cya.." She agreed..
.. " Where are we going..? " I asked her as soon as she asked me to sit on bike..
.. " I dont know.. You sit .." I chuckled.. I had something in mind for sure..
.. Because of 'Bandh', roads were empty.. We hardly saw people or vehicles on road.. Watching DELHI like this was strange.. A city dat never sleeps was empty dat day.. I likes speed, and road was empty too.. We were enjoying the ride.. Winter night... Cool Breeze.. Bike Ride and she is wid me.. What more I can ask.. We were just roaming here and dre.. As usual her tape was on.. she was talking everything and anything.. ( Sumtyms I wonder how can she do that 24X7.. Specially when I am wid her... :P )
.. Usually DELHI Roads have so much traffic.. That we can never expect ride like this... But that day thankfully we got a chance to enjoy that.. she was holding me.. Felt bit cold.. She was kind of shivering.. But she didnt told me anything.. but I realized that and I slowed down bike.. And asked her, " Feeling better now..? " Sje was surprised widout even saying I knew that.. she smiled, " Yes.. But how u came to know..? "
.. " I am your sweetheart.. Stupid.. ! " I chuckled.. I hugged her more tighter..
.." I love you.. " She whispered in her ears.. " But I love you more.. " I smiled and said..
.. After sumtym, I suddenly parked my bike on one side of road.. And asked her to get down.. She was wondering.. I took her hand and said.. " Lets walk.. " She smiled..
.. We were walking on Highway.. I was loving that moment.. Cool air.. Empty Roads.. Peaceful atmosphere.. Herhands in mine.. It was all perfect.. I was talking now and She was listening.. ( For A Change.. :P ) .. I said how she is planing to spend her life with me.. About our future.. Wat dreams she have planned for US.. Everything.. It was just like a *Dream* for me.. I was blushing...
.. When a Gal, You love.. talks about their future with you.. Its not less than *Heaven* for any guy.. I just wanted to catch all that moments in My Heart.. Watever moments we spent was not planned.. But it was the best.. Today m cherishing these memories..
.. " When you are in Love.. All little moments make You feel Happiest.. Little things she say makes your heart melt.. And these moments gives you the reason to Be wid her..You will never know value of moments till it becomes a lovely memory.. " :) :)
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Itz been almost a double year since we are together but however our couple is not like other couplez...we don't get to see eachother often...feel eachother often...meet eachother often...YES...u guessed it right...itz all coz we are in a "LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP"...I really miss her a lot...we converse with eachother once in a day atleast but still it doesn't seem enough...coz whenever I see my peer group enjoying n partying with their couplez...I feel really alone...I MISS HER alwayz...!! ♥
Before going into this relation we both were actually very reluctant...n why not..?? Long distance relation is after all very difficult to maintain...we need loadz of trust...loadz of determination...loadz of patience in order to keep up with the relation...it actually requirez huge amount of "ADJUSTMENT" from both sidez...however now a dayz social networking sitez like "FACEBOOK" n "SKYPE" has made it a bit easy to keep in touch but still long distance is a long distance relation...!! ♥
At timez I feel that is this relation actually worth it...?? Coz there are many situationz when I actually need her "PERSONALLY" for her guidance...for her support...for his advice...but unfortunately she can't be with me quite often n especially when I need her the most she is never here with me...we get to see eachother hardly once or twice in an year...so is it really worth...?? I thought n thought n came to a conclusion that "YES" they are definately worth the effort...!! ♥
Just imagine...itz so beautiful that you give all your trust...all your co operation...all your loyalty towardz a "SPECIAL PERSON"...the person for whom u can do just anything...the person with whom u can just be u...the person who lovez u unconditionally...it portrayz how much "DEEPLY" the couple is into eachother...how much determined they both are towardz eachother...how much they are striving to be with eachother n most importantly how much they are in "LOVE" with eachother...yes...we don't get to see eachother often...we can't hang around like other couplez...we can't celebrate n party together quite often...so what...?? Atleast we are "TOGETHER" n thatz what makez this long distance relation even special coz even after all these difficultiez we are "TOGETHER" n thatz what matterz the most...!! ♥
Even after all these hurdlez...all these difficultiez if the couple can manage to maintain their relation then I guess this in itself is the "BIGGEST PROOF" that how much they love eachother...how pure their love towardz eachother is...how blindly the couple "TRUST" eachother...I dont get to see him often n I miss him a lot...but whenever I think of this quote I just forget everything n be happy n thank the almighty for blessing me with "HIM"
"DON'T LET DISTANCE RUIN YOUR LOVE COZ A DAY FARTHER TO THE LAST TIME U SAW THEM...IS A DAY CLOSE WHEN THE NEXT TIME U GONNA MEET THEM" ♥
I'll never forget the first day we met
I can't explain it, but I knew
That you would be someone special
Someone who could come to mean
so much
To this day, I'm still drawn
The invisible pull that links
my heart to yours
Only it's no longer
a mystery
It's something to be cherished
To be savored and enjoyed
I'm loving every minute
I'm basking in the aura
That whirls and soars
Beckoning me for more
My emotions are whispering
That I need you to breathe
I need you to make me whole
To complete me
The experience of you is
Seared into my soul
And it will never grow old
Fanning the flames of desire
And love so deep
It's me, it's you, it's us
And I want it all
Forever
Never miss use the one,
who likes you♥
Never say busy to the one,
who needs you♥
Never cheat the one,
who really trust you♥
Never forget the one,
who always remember you....♥♥♥
LOVES IS A VRY PRECIOUS FEELING GUYS AND GIRLS
DON't use these types of waste words in ur precious love....like cheat, misunderstndings, fake feelings, flirt.....and etc etc.....♥♥
just believe in ur love and trust.....evrything will be fine after sometime....BE ALWYS HAPPY BCoZ god is alwys wid u........!!|
I am not a writer,
But I have written
Our love story.♥
I am not a poet,
But I wrote a poem for you.♥
I am not a singer,
But I sing
Love songs for you.♥
I am not a dancer,
But I will dance with you netime..♥
I am not perfect,
But loving you
Makes me the best..♥
I guess itz not a short time either
…2 yearz is actually enough time to know a person<yes!uh heard ryte.v r tghtr 4rm mre dn 2 yrz >…her nature…her pronz n conz…her likez n dislikez…to be honest we both know each other really well…we both know pretty well that what are the so called “DOz n DON’Tz” that are to be followed in order to maintain our beautiful relation…we are very close n open to eachother as well…so basically in this kind of ”SPECIAL RELATION” some sort of “EXPECTATIONZ” are like pre assumed from the very start…!!
♥ Itz but obvious that we both expect certain thingz from eachother…where many of these thingz are mostly unsaid…same is the case with me…I expect certain thingz from her which I can’t ask her “MYSELF” to do every now n then…I expect these small thingz to be done by her “HERSELF” as well…but unfortunately she has alwayz let me dwn…I alwayz care for her…even for a mere thing I think twice before I do it…so that she doesn’t get hurt…I feel for her so I make sure that all those mere thingz doesn’t spoil our beautiful relation…I have alwayz kept her as my only n foremost priority…!!
♥ But when it comez to her…"sorry" to say but she is least bothered n least interested in living upto my expectationz…she never livez upto my expectationz at all…recently I waz in a big problem…I needed her advice…guidance n support but when I needed her the most she wazn’t there for me n with me…she didn’t contact me at all…I just expected her to atleast drop me a message so that I can say that “YES…SHE CAREZ…!!” but unfortunately she didn’t which clearly protrayz she doesn’t care for me at all…!! </3
I even know that after a day or two she will contact me n apologize n I will forgive her as alwayz n thingz will again be fine between us for a while but the real question is till “WHEN…??” till “WHEN” will this go on..?? till ”WHEN” I have to get disappointed again n again coz of her…?? till “WHEN” my expectationz will remain unfulfilled..?? If we are together then I think both of us are responsible for maintaining our relation…right..?? So why is it alwayz “ME” who fulfilz her expectationz…why not “SHE”…?? why can’t she live upto my expectationz…??
So till the time I find the answer to my questionz I have decided one thing which may help me in future…I have decided that I won’t ever expect anything from her now onwardz…coz really…”
EXPECTATIONZ ALWAYZ HURTZ WHEN LEFT UNFULFILLED SO BETTER NOT TO EXPECT ANYTHING ITSELF”…!! </3
I proмιѕe тo вe тнere wнen yoυ need мe .. ♥
I proмιѕe тo нυg yoυ тιgнт wнen yoυ’re lonely .. ♥
I proмιѕe тo wιpe yoυr тearѕ wнen тнey ғall .. ♥
I proмιѕe тo ĸeep yoυ noт ғor тнe reѕт oғ мy lιғe ...♥
вυт ғor тнe reѕт oғ yoυrѕ........ ♥
A Rєαℓ вσу киσωѕ нσω тσ ναℓυє α Rєℓαтισиѕнιρ.
иσ мαттєя нσω мαиу gιяℓѕ ¢σмє,
нє ∂σєѕи'т ¢αяє. вє¢αυѕє fσя нιм, нιѕ gιяℓ ιѕ тнє вєѕт....!! ♥
Once someone breaks your Trust ... Leaves you broken.. Than it becomes Difficult to Trust again.. Isnt it..?? Same happened with me.. I started feeling like All Grls are SAME.. I lost faith from the word TRUST.. For me it didnt exists.. !!
But as its said.. " One day you will get 1... That will make you realize why it didnt work with anyone else.. " Happened with me.. She came in my life.. And my life changed.. She made me feel like a Prince.. Without doing any effort she won my heart.. For US it was just like ' Unplanned Love Story' .. She wanted to prove me that All Grlz are not same.. And she did too.. ♥
One late evening I messaged her, " Busy in kitchen..?? "
" A bit ..But we can talk.. " She said
" I was thinking if we can meet today.. Its almost a week.. I have see you.. " I was sad.. Because of her stdies we couldnt meet..
" Let me see.. If I can manage mon n dad... Or else we will meet some other day.. " She replied back
I was upset.. I was badly missing her.. " Ok.. " I replied her
I was waiting for her message for meeting.. But she didnt.. Late night my mobile buzzed.. " Hey .. Slept..?? " It was her
" No was waiting for your message.. Done with your stdiez..?? " I asked
" Yaa long back... Actually I did early and den went for shoppin at mall.. " She said casually..
I felt bad.. I really wanted to meet her.. " Ohh thats good.. " I was upset and she caught me..
" Wat happnd..?? U r sounding upset..?? " She asked
" I told you I wanted to meet you.. I was missing you a lot... If you would have meet me at least 5 mins ... " I couldnt complete it.. Tear rolled down from my eyes..
" Heyy cutie.. Please dont cry... I am such a fool .. I completely forgot dat you asked me to meet.. " She was sounding sad.. I remained silent..
" Shitt mann.. I always screw up things.. I made my prince cry just because of that stupid shoppin.. I am sorry cutie... Please forgive me.." She said with lots of love..
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" Its ok .. " I said
" No its not.. I cant afford your single tear.. You are my priority.. I promise it wont happen next time..Love you.. Please smile.. " She really felt guilty..
" I love you too.. " I smiled back..
Next day Early morning.. I was going college..And Guess what.. Damm She was waiting for me near my place.. I was stunned.. I hugged her ... I was super happy to see her.. " OMG you are here.. Dat too early morning.. " It was unbelievable..
" Of course.. You wanted to meet me.. Anything to make you smile my prince..juz coz uh treat meh lyk princess..." She kissed on my cheeks.. I *Blushed..*
..It's sweet when a grl realizes she hurt your feelings, so she does everything she possibly can to cheer you back up.
It’s very rare for a grl to realize their wrong doings. A grl is often full of pride, and she doesn’t want anyone to step down on her ego. But the truth is, it only takes a guy for a grl to become very sincere. A guy<real> is a grl’s weakness. That’s true. When a guy puts effort on a grl, not just efforts on material things, he must really be in love. Because not all guys have the ability to tolerate a girl’s attitude. So when he does everything for you to, and he doesn’t waste a minute on you being mad at him, he’s worth it. Never let him go.. :)
I Love you regardless of what people think and regardless of the rules ♥ :')
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The day I met you, I was born.
the day you left me, I was so gone.
The day I met you, was the day I smiled first.
The day you left me, was the day I breathed last.
The day I met you,all I did was stare.
The day you left me, I couldn't bear.
The day I met you, the time freezed.
The day you left me, my heart seized.
The day I met you, my eyes popped.
The day you left me, my beat stopped.
The day I met you, everything was so bright.
The day you left me, nothing was right.
The day I met you, outside it was raining.
The day you left me, inside me it was paining.
The day I met you, I believed in love at first sight.
The day you left me, all I could see was your hate.
The day I met you, you were shining.
The day you left me, I was dying.
The day I met you, my heart was shaken.
The day you left me, it got broken.
The day I met you, was like a dream.
The day you left me, was just another bad dream
The day I met you was beautiful in every way.
The day you left me, was hard to see you walking away.
The day I met you, I fell in love.
The day you left me, I ended up in grave.
The day I met you, I met my world.
The day you left me, I didn't utter a word.
The day I met you, my feet jump.
The day you left me, I was numb.
The day I met you, I was flattered.
The day you left me, my heart shattered.
The day I met you, saw an angel on earth.
The day you left me, met the angel of death.
The day I met you, my mind strayed.
The day you left me, I felt betrayed.
The day I met you, birds were singing.
The day you left me, people were chanting.
The day we met, the day you left.
Two days of my life I cant forget.
♥♥♥♥
relationships happens to be the most beautiful gift we get from god after family....people say love happens to be the worst drug as well as the most wonderful feeling but which of the two sentence is true... i guess both
but what about me....i was never serious about love..actually "LOVE...whats dat .... not my stuff.. " was what used to be my thinking unless i get a chance 2 feel LOVE....
umm ... defining love is one of the most difficult task i guess....spclly 4 a guy ... moreover 4 a "confused" boy lyk me ...
the most important thing 4 a successful relation is finding a loyal and "made 4 u" partner..it may b dat sometimes u get wrong partner and he/she may give u severe pain by breaknig ur heart bt trust me if so happens dats bcz ur ryt praying 2 get u .. bcz u both onli can complete each odr
n guys when u find dat "MISS. PERFECT" 4 u .... dat wud give u immense pleasure when everytym u wud see her....their "innocent lyk a baby" smile...dat love n passion 4 u in their eyes and a single glance in their eyes wud make u feel dat yes....hes ur mrs .she is the onli one made 4 u .. she is the onli one whu wud never break ur heart...she is the one whu treats u lyk a prince....she is the one whu can do anythng 4 a single smile of urs and ultimately she wud b d one whuse love wud bring a smile at ur face, tears in ur eyes and just one thought in ur heart "what gr8 thing u did dat u got her divine n pure love" :')
n indeed she proves 2 be ur miss.ryt ... although no1 is perfect ..it may happen dat sumtymz she can't meet ur expectation levels....bt in such situation do think wht else she do 4 u rather paying imp 2 what she cudnt do...and make each odr aware of ur desires and expectations with each odr
but love gives not onli the pleasure...bt also d unbearable pain ..
d pain u get when u can't talk 2 her even a single day....dat pain u feel when without seeing her face ur day goes incomplete...dat heartache u feel when she is unablel 2 understand ur feelings ... dat pain u feel when she talks 2 sum another 1 .. dat feeling of insecurity...dat nights of silent cries and tears u spend when u both have a fight out of a misunderstanding or the stubbornness ... even a single moment 2 spend withought her feels lyk hell ... u get suffocated .. u feel 2 scream loud....dose loving words and pampering feels 2 b lost somewhere
P.S --> love is a name of both pleasure and pain ... but make sure that ur rltn is worth enough 2 bear the pain bcz if love gives pain then it gives d strength also 2 bear that pain