Itz 31st December again...seemz like yesterday when I celebrated the New year 2012 with my friendz n family...when I made those New Year Resolutionz...when we partied...when we made some new promisez...when we all enjoyed n celebrated that new start...n now we are again going for a new start in the next few hourz...itz so strange...time is actually flying...n for me atleast 2012 just simply flew away...!! ♥
This year waz a wonderful one...I learnt many thingz...I got to know myself even better...I found myself a bit more mature as well...I learnt some positivitiez n negativitiez of life...this year waz full of fun n excitement...made new friendz...broke up with some...fell in love...fought with my loved onez...patched up...learned to move on...discovered that hapiness liez in small thingz that we do for our loved onez n the list goez on...this year waz a bit sad for me as well...I lost some of my really close onez...met accident...recovered...but overall if I see then 2012 waz a really beautiful time of my life which I can never forget...!! ♥
I will definately cherish this year throughout my life...n why not...?? After all life is beautiful n really worth living...life is like a chain...a circle...it revolvez around n again comez to the same point...same way we are at the brim point today n after a few hourz a new circle...a new chain will start...so let'z promise to try n make this start even better...to try n improvise ourself...to try n make our life even better so that we can say that YES...!! 2013 waz even wonderful then 2012...!! ♥
I want everyone to join handz together n promise to oneself to make 2013 worth it...As scope of improvement is alwayz there...I want everyone to cherish this beautiful moment n live this wonderful life gifted by the Almighty as joyfully as you can...coz life is to live n to make it count n worth living each n every moment...so "BEST OF LUCK" to everyone for this new start...God bless...cheerz...!! ♥
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" What are you thinking so much ..? " She asked me.. I was lost somewhere..
.. " I am trying to measure My love for you.. " I said wid confused face..
" Wat...?? " She smiled..
" Yes I really want to know how much I love you.. " still confused.. I answered..
" And why you want to know that..? " She took my hand in her..
" So that I can tell you that how much you mean to me..But I am not able to find answer " I looked down..
She placed her hands on my palm and made me luk in2 her eyes.. " You know wat cutie.. Your eyes speaks everything to me.. You dont need to find words to express your love for me.. "
.. I smiled.. " Naaaaaaah.. But I still want to find that answer.. "
She laughed, " You are full gone case.. Ok thn think and let me know.. " I tried a lot to find answer but culdn't..
.. I know I love her.. She is my world.. But I cant express in words.. I can only say ' I Love You' , But sometimes its not enough.. Because I really want dat she should know how much she is important to me.. Watever I do, I think of her.. I always relate her with watever I do..
..When we are in love we always say many things to our partner.. But sometimes words are not enough to express your feelings.. Because Action speaks louder than words.. Doesnt matter how old your relationship is, Always try to make your partner feel special.. Never miss a single chance to tell them How much they are important in your life.. And never get tired of doing small things for them.. These small things means a lot in relationship.. Never get stuck in your life so much dat you start taking your partner for granted.. A small ' I Love You' wont take much time and It will always strengthen your relationship..Expressing your feelings makes it special.. :) :)
.. Sometimes I *Wonder* if she can actually see What she means to me..?? How much I love her..?? And If she really can see it in my Eyes.. I *Wonder* ... ♥
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Insecurity.. Fear of losing your loved one.. ! Feeling that.. She will go away from me.. I will be left alone as earlier.. ! I know she loves me a lot.. But I am still afraid.. Because I can not afford to lose her... Distance.. Issues between us.. Nothing were going right.. So for the first time I felt Insecure.. ! I was just not able to accept it..
.. " You know something.. I am feeling insecure sweetheart... " I said..
.. " But why cutie<yes! i was that 4 her>..? Did I said something wrong..? " She replied..
.. " No.. But these days are not going good for us..So I am afraid.. " I was upset..
.. " So what... Every relationship have ups and down.. " She tried to make me understand..
.. " Yes, But I am feeling I will get replaced.. I am not able to keep you happy a single day.. " I almost cried..
.. " Shut up.. who told you dat.. You stop thinking from Tubbu ( Tubelight :P ) mind.. " She said..
.." Cutie.. Please dont feel insecure.. No one can replace you ever.. Have faith in your love..♥ " She replied with lots of love.. I smiled..
.. Its not wrong to feel insecure.. If I am insecure abt my Love.. Does it mean I dont have faith in her..? No.. Its just I am afraid to lose her... Its obvious if you love some one so truly.. I am glad that she understood me.. When your partner is feeling insecure, Dont think they dont have trust on you.. In fact, make them believe that nothing can makes you both apart..
.. Insecurity shows how much Your partner means to you.. Boys always feel jealous.. Insecure when they see their partner getting close with another guy.. Its natural.. ! It doesnt mean that you will bind your partner.. Just try to make her understand what you are afraid of.. I am sure it will avoid distance between both.. :) :) . Its always a good feeling that some one is afraid of losing you.. ! IF Love is True nothing can destroy it..
.. " Most Amaz¡ng Part Of Love .. !!
Its When Others Always Try To Steal Your Partner..
But, Still Your Partner
Always Choose To Stay With You..♥ .. "
My best friend n me were at CCD discussing about our love life....he said hez upset coz her gf didn't met him n give him time from the past 1 week....n said tht he will not talk to her until she go out with him ...he said he feelz unlucky to be with her as she doesn't give her enough time...UNLUCKY...?? Yes...!! He called himself unlucky just coz his gf didn't met him from the past 1 week....!!!
I thought that if hez unlucky....then what am I....?? In which category do I belong....??? I last met her 11 monthz ago when she came in marriage n I don't know when next she is gonna come....she hardly callz once in 2-3 dayz....we don't get to see each other often...we don't get to feel each other....hug each other....we can't hangout often....we can't go out for lunch....dinner....we can't party often...in short my best friend is in a much better position than I am....but still hez not satisfied...!!
In life we usually never get satisfied by what we have....rather we just pound for more...we just keep demanding more n more....but once we should stop n think what all do we possess....we must value what we have....we must respect what we have....n must feel proud of it....I don't have a perfect love life....infact not even a regular one but still I find myself LUCKY....lucky coz shez in my life....lucky coz even after all these complicationz she lovez me from the bottom of her heart....lucky coz she is and will be there for me....alwayz n forever....!!!
She smiled... I held her waist...pulled her closer...looked straight into her eyes ..took out a beautiful ring from my pocket...bowed like a true gentleman n said..."I promise that I will love u from the core of my heart always ..I LOVE U my angel...Will u be my life partner...??" ♥
She was just jaw dropped...for a moment seemed like the world had stopped...for a second she was out of senses ..Her heart pounded out... thousands of things were running in her mind...She was thinking that what happened to me suddenly...?? Earlier I just wanted to be her BFF n nothing more than that due to the expected future complications in our relationship then suddenly what happened to me...?? But all she could say at that mesmerizing moment was "YES OF COURSE...I LOVE U TOO!!" n I just forgot everything...with a big smile on my face I just hugged her tight...for me it was my dream come true...!! ♥
The very next moment I apologized for my past behavior ..I said that when she spoke her heart out to me that day...I called her immature n didn't took her words seriously...she thought she just said all that in vain...but when I gave it a thought calmly I realized that somewhere at the end she was right..."WHEN THERE IS A WILL...THERE IS DEFINITELY A WAY"...!! ♥
Itz our strong will from the past 2 years to be together...we are a perfect match for each other ..we know that...we have realized that quite often...we have realized that SHE is my "ANGEL" n I am her "MR.RIGHT"...even after such realization just due to some difficulties ..that too expected difficulties why to kill our love...?? Why to kill this beautiful relation...?? Why to put a "BFF" full stop on it...?? ♥
There are problems in every relationship...running away from those problems are easy but it isn't a solution either...facing those problems is definitely a one...we decided to face all the problems together that we will face in our future...we decided to tackle all the problems holding each other's hand...coz at the end at-least we will be "TOGETHER"...n thats what matters the most...we just have one life n I guess we have the right to live it our own way n do what we want to...to choose our life partner n stay with them paying every possible cost it takes ..at the end at-least there will be no regrets in our minds that what if we could have given it a try...may be we would have been together...so better to make "May be together" as "Definitely be together"...!! ♥
We learnt a lesson...a lesson for a lifetime..."COMPLICATIONS ARE A FREE GIFT WITH EVERY RELATION...DON'T RUN FROM THEM...INSTEAD FACE THEM TOGETHER FROM THE FRONT...COZ WHERE THERE IS LOVE...THERE IS DEFINITELY A SOLUTION"...!! ♥
We decided to never let go off our "MAGNETIC BOND"...two magnets ..who always cling each other n incomplete without each other...We decided to never let go this "perfect bond"...just like two sides of the same coin... coz somewhere or the other we know that this bond is forever n we will cherish it always n throughout our lifetime...!! ♥
i thought that i would be the one to leave
never felt so lonely and decieved
if i only knew that love could hurt so bad
now i be the one being sad
what about the first kiss first touch my love
did it mean anything to you
first kiss first touch my love first crush
cause it meant alot to me
how could you leave me i really needed you
look what you thought of me how could you be so cruel
you were my everything you meant alot to me
look how you made me bleed baby i needed you
im standing all alone girl you decieved me
if i only knew i feel like such a fool
i gave you everything even the sympathy
ill let you be now without my melody
i lye awake and remember when we made love
and the soft words you used to whisper in my ear
i love you
i think about sweet moments we've had
my only wish is that you come walking right back
what about the first kiss first touch my love
did it mean anything to you
first kiss first touch our love first crush
cause it meant alot to me
how could you leave me i really needed you
look what you thought of me how could you be so cruel
you were my everything you meant alot to me
look how you made me bleed baby i needed you
im standing all alone girl you decieved me
if i only knew i feel like such a fool
i gave you everything even the sympathy
ill let you be now without my melody
what you said to me its so ovbious
how you lied to me now its hard for me
yes you were my eyes when i couldnt see
and you were my air when i couldnt breathe
now u made me lie something something
cause it meant alot to me...
how could you leave me i really needed you
look what you thought of me how could you be so cruel
you were my everything you meant alot to me
look how you made me bleed baby i needed you
im standing all alone girl you decieved me
if i only knew i feel like such a fool
i gave you everything even the sympathy
ill let you be now without my melody
why did u leave, why did you leave me
plz c it:-itz true
I shouldn't have walked away
I would've stayed if you said
We could've made everything OK
But we justThrew the blame back and forth
We treated love like a sport
The final blow hit so lowI'm still on the ground
I couldn't have prepared myself for this fall
Shattered in pieces curled on the floor
Super natural love conquers all'Member we used to touch the sky
And
Lightning don't strike
The same place twice
When you and I said goodbyeI felt the angels cry
True love's a giftWe let it driftIn a storm
Every nightI feel the angels cry
C'mon babe can't our love be revived
Bring it back and we gon' make it right
I'm on the edge just tryin' to survive
As the angels cry
I thought we'd be forever and always
You were serenityYou took away the bad days
Didn't always treat you right
But it was OK
I do somethin' stupid
And you still stay with me
But you can only go for so long
Doing the one you claim to love wrong
Before too much is enough
You look upFind your love gone
And
We were so good together
How come we could not weather
This storm and just do better
Why did we say goodbye
'Cause lightning don't strike
The same place twice
When you and I said goodbye
I felt the angels cry
True love's a gift
We let it driftIn a storm
Now every night
I feel the angels cry...
If there ever comes a day
when we can't be
together,,keep me in your
heart,I'll stay there
forever,,,!!!!
Blinking of my lappi ova my,wanting of soft tissues to tap over her,holding of a cup of cafe-frappe... actually its all not meant for you...but these are the sweet yet interesting parts of my life.I don't have any new adventures,new enjoyments but i'v that small yet a big part of happiness.
The life changed after i born...i mean i fall in love.The moment i saw my angel i realize i'v heart beat. It wasn't meant to end but time melted like chocolate brownie< cos i love it> and she passed from the eyes...not from heart.She made the lasting forever impression in my heart.It wasn't her sexiness cos she has it naturally but it was her cuteness that adore me.
Well!you may be thinking why am i statin these now?why am i wriiting non-sense?
But evry i'v juz some lines to say,"Love and life never runs as uh say...they make you move on their track but its upto you ...whether you choose them rightly or not...will you turn to answer them or not....mine happpened and m lucky to be in love...r you?
It wasn't ever meant that she didn't loved me,she did but as if I was her "used to toy".Her love was like the poison which made me dead.It was every time me who falls over her like the kid nodding to her warden...just because he is afraid of leaving alone now.Its been like the fucking tranversal of sex,i was the sensitive guy and she was the ignorable heart.It was not at all going on the love track.I never misbehaved with her coz i truly lved her but she hurdted meh not 1ce not evn 2wce but evrytime,she was like the knife for me and i was the waterelon.Wished i never get her again back.
When I look into her eyes
I feel how much she care
I hate the good-byes
Even though I know she is always there
When she put her arms around me
I get chills up and down my spine
This is how I always wanted it to be
For her to be mine
The feeling I get when she kiss me
Are too strong for words
I wonder how much she miss me
When I am gone like a bird
Just know that I am always there for you
When there is snow, rain, or shine
I know that this love is true
Forever I am her and forever she is mine...
Itz been more than a calendar can count since we are in relation...to be honest the two most important thingz in any relation...trust n understanding...we have both...I trust her a lot...at timez even more than myself...n I understand her a lot as well...she also understandz me well but not that well either...overall we have a good tuning...a nice and lovely bond to be cherished...!! ♥
I really can't even think of letting go off this bond...I get scared even by the wildest thought that how would I survive without her...Yes...!! I am possessive about her...and at timez...even over possessive...but is it a really bad thing to be possessive...?? If something which belongz to u n u are afraid of loosing it so I guess itz quite natural n evident to be possessive...!!
This incidence happened a few monthz ago when "HE" entered her life...he waz her classmate...new admission...I felt insecured by the way she started talking about him...almost everyday I used to hear about the talks...n sometimez even alone...I just couldn't bear it...I can't share her with anyone...after all she is mine...!!
So one fine day I pinged "him" myself n told him that "SHE IS MINE" n I don't like his getting too involved with her...he just smiled n said "ok"...she waz a bit upset when he came to know about that incidence...may be she is right...I shouldn't have done this but the fact remainz that "I LOVE HER"...from the core of my heart...n I can't afford to share her with anyone...I am not saying she shouldn't get involved with any guy except me...I am just saying don't get too involved with any guyl except me...!!
At timez galz don't understand a guy'z<real> mentality...She simply said "stop being POSSESSIVE"...well why can't she understand a simple thing that why I got possessive...?? Why she gave me a chance to be possessive...?? I explained these thingz to her...she said she will give it a thought...I hope she will understand my mindset soon...!! ♥
So at timez itz good to be possessive...coz itz the best way out to show that "MINE IS MINE"...!! ♥
Missing someone when you are alone is not affection ;
But thinking of that someone even when you are busy is called real addiction.
Letting your heart beat for someone when you are with them is breathing;
But unwishingly feeling your heart tap to its maximum is called liveliness.
Writing lines when someone is with you can make you writer
But moving your finger in its own way when you are lonely is what love makes.
Taking to your heart in pain is not passion about love;
But wounding its pain is what love calls for.
If I don't make up to you when you ask me for most,
If I don't be with you when you need me the most,
If I don't stand by you when you want me the most,
If I don't talk with you when you speaks just for me most,
If I don't wipe your tears when you make them fall coz of me,
If I don't make your lips curve when you want to smile,
If I don't think about you when you thought i would be,
If I don't txt you when you think for me a whole day,
If I don't hug you when you feel unsafe...
and many more things if I don't do then
"What for I should be in your life?
Why I should be called as your guy then?"
Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
Where every single promise I'll keep
Cause what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most
What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they're done
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone
And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight
And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most
What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they're done
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone
Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I'll keep
Cause what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most
I'm forever keeping my angel close
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When We See Our Beloved One's
After A Long Gap ..
We Want To Share Many Things
But
Smile And Silence Are The First
One We Share .. :)
That's Affection .. |♥| :)
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That's love<you better know its true always>
I get often think of making up to her,making my lips tocuh to let her reliase am not dumb but it's always the unspoken words,untouchy feelings that come out.The time i spent in those times,those just dipping into her eyes make up meh life.Its me and meh life in her form,meh better half part always remains to be with meh.Even when we dn't speak we make up our love.Even when i don't see touch,my hearts do.Even when i don't kiss her it's her untouchy bleeze that zakes my.
10th december
9.pm
Breathig at -Open Skies
It was the usual better say same day.I woke up dreaming of her again.She has now been into meh not phyiscally in bed but more than that in heart.She gave meh the bleeze which even nature can't do that.It was her who ceems to have made my day glow,i rise to my high coz of her.
She said "wake up dear",and it was the most cute,but naughty voice i have ever heard of.But being a guy i used 2 be somewhat called louder and so i mummered literally "sure angel".
She was with meh in my every thing,even in shower her touch was immense.It was the feelin i just can't tell<kuch baatein share nahi kar sakthe>.
She was even next to meh in the bus.She was in meh wardrobe even.Was i dreaming or was it was her,whatever happened it was the best.She accompanied me in meh classes.in meh lectures,in my labs,and even in washroom<i was feelin shy>.
Havin the part of my whole day with her was something i would pray daily.It was not real today but i wish to make it happen soon....
Roy
Have u ever loved someone from the core of your heart...?? Have u ever felt that there is that someone extremely special without whom you can't survive...?? Do u love someone unconditionally...?? Well...I did...I still remember the first time I saw her...I fell for her then n there itself...our magical eye contact just took it all...it has been yearz since we in a relationship...thingz were going smooth...but the real question was until when...??
And guess what...?? I got the answer to my question...I don't know why I started feeling that the attention she used to give me earlier...that attention she waznt giving me now...I felt as if he started to take me lightly...she wazn't ignoring me ofcourse...but the attention I alwayz used to get...now I am not getting...I am used to it now...I am used to his pampering...the way she used to compliment me...the way she alwayz used to make me feel special...the way she alwayz treated me like a prince..why she has changed...?? I started missing the old her...seemed like I am no more her priority now...!!
Monthz passed by n one day I met a small accident...suddenly her behaviour towardz me changed...I could feel the old her again...may be because of her possessiveness towardz me...or may be because of the fear of loosing me...what so ever the reason may be...the thing which mattered the most is that I got the same old pampering which I was seeking from her since long...but after a few weekz she changed again...I just want to be her priority..thatz it..Yes I waz being selfish...but I am used to being her priority so I started "LIEING"...!!
My first lie..."Sweetheart I am depressed...I no more want to live"...she again started to give me attention which I waz seeking for by consoling me...!!
My second lie..."I think I may shift to jaipur"...she started to talk even more time with me then usual coz of the fear of parting from me...!!
My third lie..."My parentz are thinking of my marriage in the coming 1-2 yearz"...n my liez just continued...1 after another...with every lie I made the situation even more excentric...!!
I got so habitual of it now that I just couldn't resist myself from lieing...after every lie I used to make a promise that itz the last one...but since promisez are meant to be broken...I never followed it...monthz passed by..n one fine day we were sitting together when she suddenly asked me..."have u ever lied to me..??" She waz looking straight into my eyez...n trust me I just couldn't lie to her this time...tearz rolled down my eyez..s.he waz stunned to see me like that..she asked..."why u crying dear..??" I just hugged her n said...
"YES..I LIED...I LIED TO U A LOT OF TIMEZ BUT IT WAZ U...U CHANGED YOUR BEHAVIOUR TOWARDZ ME WHICH FORCED ME TO DO SO...N THE FACT RIGHT NOW IS THAT I DID ALL THIS COZ I LOVE U...MADLY...HONESTLY...CRAZILY...DEEPLY N TRULY..PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME...I NEED U.."
She waz upset...extremely upset for a few dayz but after a while she gave a thought on what I said...she realized that somewhere it waz her mistake as well...if she didn't had changed then all this would never have happened...if she had alwayz given me the same level of priority n attention likes she used to give me in the beginning of our relation then I would have never lied to her...yes I waz selfish everytime I lied but I love her n I can't afford to loose her either...now since we both have realized our mistakez...we both mutually decided 2 thingz
1) I wont lie ever
2) She will alwayz treat me like a prince
I got a lesson for a lifetime..."NEVER GIVE SOMEONE TOO MUCH IMPORTANCE...N IF U DO THEN BE PREPARED TO RETAIN IT ALWAYZ COZ THE DAY U DIDN'T...NEGATIVITIEZ WILL CONFER...!!"
Roy
It may heal you a lot ,
it may give you much pain,
it may took you even...
just being friend is something a lot hard.Loving your love in a unacpetable way is worse than not loving her.Being single with the one you are in relationship is out of the courts.You can remain numb but can you remain fine?Its not that people always want the tag but saying to onwself that you hold some one truly in your life gives you strength.Where there is pain there is reason behind it.Just moving in others way will not make you happy.
Its lot much better to give a break to your relationship rather than just being friend ....
someday you will die,and that moment you will realise saying''M your friend" sucked you #
You can erase it,forget it but can't undo.You can abuse it,get yourself spoil over hit but can't resist yourself from thinking of it.Stars get to fade away like they just crash in the sky when love goes away.You start to feeling the worst days of your life.Losin your mind is quite better than losin heart.Its something you don't have to announce but you know you are dead.Love always leaves the void where your pain resides.Loving your partner truly makes you a better person but losing them can also make you the worst one.
Just when you think you get out of it,you figurise you haven't.
You know it has tore your heart out,and threw it on the floor,but don't mean that you are worthless..
You are something more than that...
Trying to get your attention, it's like water into wine
Guess ignorance is bliss, and even broken love is blind...