Everything was going wrong between us..
She was not the same.. She was ignoring me..lying to me.. We were hardly talking for few mins in those days.. I knew something is wrong.. I tried to ask her many times.. But she only said, "That's your miss understanding CUTIE, Everything is alright between us.. Dnt worry." .. And I tried to make myself believe that she is right.. I am just over thinking. But deep inside I knew that it was not the truth.
..Long distance relationship are always based on *Trust*.. Because you cant see each other..U have to believe watever your partner says..And I did the same.. One late night I suddenly woke up.. I took my cell and dialed her number.. I was shocked..I couldn't believed wat I heard.. It was showing busy.. I was afraid.. But still I told myself that she might be talking wid her friend.. I called her again.. She disconnected my call on second line.. It was still on waiting.. I tried to sleep.. Early morning it was 5 am ..I again tried to call her.. And damn.. it was still waiting.. Now I knew it was not his friend..
.. I knew the truth still I didnt wanted to come on conclusion so I asked her next day..
She answered, "He is just my friend Cutie."
I asked her, " Is he is so important for you, that you cant even pick up my call on waiting..?"
She told, " he wouldn't felt good..If I would have kept him on waiting.."
I shouted , " And wat about me Damn it.. ! I was calling you till early morning.."
.. And That was first time I felt.. Yes I was being *Replaced* .. She was more concerned about someone Else's feelings than mine.. We argued alot.. Every second of argument I was dying with the pain that someone had stolen my place in her *life*.. Now that had became a routine.. Daily late night I used to call her and it was on waiting.. I messaged her..I was begging .. crying "please pick up my call once.." But she didnt.. She knew very well from wat I was suffering.. But she only replied, " I cant disconnect his call."
.. I spent all those night sleepless..crying.. fighting for my love.. But it was already too late..I never thought in dreams dat dis could happened with me.. Because I was in a false believe that I am doing more than she could expect from her partner.. But no..I was wrong.. Those days were like a hell for me.. She kept telling me that he is just a friend.. But I knew it was not truth.. I loved her so much that even was unable to break relation. Even just before my exam .. Whole night I was crying and next day I went for exam.. Paper was worst bcoz I didnt studied .. I realized wat wrong I was doing with my life.. I stopped myself der..
.. Few days later she realized her mistake or may be my value.. Watever..! She saw dat I was not more fighting with her.. She apologized for her mistake.. But wat was the use.. She couldnt give me my sleepless nights back.. and more dan dat my exams.. I accepted her apology but I lost respect for her..Even after my lots of try I was not able to make things right between us.. I suffered biggest pain of my life..
Being *Replaced*..
So I decided to close dat chapter.. It was hurting me but staying der was more difficult.. !
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