Rejection is something I'm very bad at handling. I have been and brought up in a pampered manner. I'm the youngest<better say only 1> of my family so I'm the apple of everybody's eyes.
Rejection is something I never faced in my life.
Rejection is something I never wanted to face in my life.
Until and unless I met him.
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30th december,2011
We gelled up pretty well no not as couple but something more than friends.
We were in a relationship earlier. It didn't work out well. So we decided to break up with mutual understanding.
Yup, it hurted me but still I tried hard not to show it.
'you can't be friends with those with whom you were committed once' Is a universal truth.
Its really hard to pretend you don't care when you actually do.
Our break up took a toll on my life.
I stopped talking to my friends.
I stopped going out.
I stopped myself from falling for anybody else.
I stopped caring for myself.
I stopped each and every crucial things in my life.
Our break up really sucked the life out of me.
But still we were friends.
She loved me,but she never showed it.
I loved her,I never showed it.
But sometimes at some point of time emotions just burst out.
You can't actually hold yourself back. You just let go.
We were on call from last 4 hours. Exactly like before. Everything was same. Just the love you's,miss you's,kisses got deducted from our chats.
' I miss those days' she said
'Which days' I whispered
'You know..when we used to be together'
'Hmmm..same here' I answered
'Cheeze I love you' she suddenly spoke out
*silence*
I was actually awestruck. I didn't expect her to tell this. I didn't hear this three magical words from her since when I don't even remember. So it was quite surprising.
'I mean..as a friend' she corrected his word.
'Don't try to lie to yourself na' her words 'as a friend' hurted me
'I mean' she started telling something.
'Let's get committed' I stopped her in between.
'You know na cutie what's my problem..I can't get committed' she tried to clarify
'You love me,I love you bas story over,where complications are coming from' my voice was rising
'I know..but still I can't get committed' she hushed
'Then what? I can't be your friends-with-benefits- type. I'm sorry' I banged down the phone.
Tears rolled down my cheeks. I wanted her in my life at any cost. But for her 'Commitment' is something which she didn't want,and it actually hurts.
Its difficult to bear the fact that you partner loves you but can't be with you just because she is afraid of commitment.
Why can't they accept the fact that commitment matters.
Atleast for me it does♥
P.S everybody expects something or the other from their beloved. So atleast give a try to fulfill it. Sometimes your try can make somebody feel special.
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